WTF?

Aren't I supposed to be in recovery?

I could have sworn that was what Partial was about.

Last night I took too many laxatives & shit out all those lovely nutrients and such they keep pumpin me full of @ Walden. Remind me at frequent intervals that I hate that because in the AM it feels great.

Well that's that I guess. Headed to Walden. Ready to be done there already.

Peace & Love

Recovery

Walden Partial -- Day 1.

Overwhelming. Came home & B/P'd -- I think I'm doing this wrong.

The amount of food - overwhelming. Not huge volume but too many calories. Twice my previous intake. Welp, going to give it a serious try because I have a job starting next Tuesday and I need to have things under enough control that I can focus at work.

Stay safe lovelies.

Gameover?

Roughest. Weekend. Ever.

Just finished my eval @ Walden and they want to put me in their PHP program. Uhhhhhh.

I want into their IOP, or at least, I did this morning but I don't have a treatment team [because I've been relapsing, duh!] and they won't take me without that.

Time to cry. Still haven't heard back about the job -- he said he'd let me know either way so it's not necessarily a bad sign yet. Epic headache.